Big stride in recovery today. Went grocery shopping for the first time without putting a single item in my carriage back on the shelf and spent over $20. AND I’m actually feeling really good about it, not anxiety ridden. I know that seems like such a little thing, but this is a hurtle I’ve really failed to tackle in all my time in recovery, so I’m all sorts of ridiculous happy right now.
HOW DARE YOU COMMENT ON MY STATUS LIKE WE’RE STILL FRIENDS? HOW DARE YOU EVEN THINK OF INITIATING CONTACT WITH ME AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME? I DON’T KNOW HOW TO MAKE THIS MORE CLEAR: YOU. SHATTERED. MY. FUCKING. HEART.
i can’t wait until october when there’s no sun outside and everything is cute colors and it’s cold and there are terrible horror movies on tv, my power is at its peak then
I suppose I should be thankful the rain is forcing me to stay at the library and work on my curriculum….
OR I could be annoyed that I can’t get more coffee.
I’m going to take a minute to remind myself of all the things I’m looking forward to this summer, despite the fact that I’m majorly stressing out over writing my lesson plans.
Confession: I have a friend who likes to text me at like 4am when he’s had nightmares or he can’t sleep or he just needs a friend. He thinks I’m always awake at 4am but really I go to bed around 12am and I change his text-tone to the loudest one I have just so it wakes me up when he needs me.
you’re the kind of friend everyone needs
Today was disgustingly hot so a couple of my girlfriends from work texted me while I was at the library if I wanted to go swimming. At first I was going to say no because I don’t have a bating suit and was nervous about conquering the rocks, but I decided to go. The current was scarily hard and wading through the rock was kinda hellish, but I’m really glad I went. Still continuing to take those opportunities to push myself out of my comfort zone and build connections with new people! Definitely worth it! :)